Diary
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​Far away from where I used to be. Outside the influence of gravity. Echoes of memories are floating, floating like an astronaut through my head. A symphony of words I never got to say. Captured in my head, they are gonna stay. It’s time to lift my mind, it’s time to lift my mind. In my diary. Next to the sea. In front of home. After my shows. Fearful replied to the questions of life. I didn’t just write, I’ve recorded my lines. In my diary. To find clarity. To break free from love. From hate that I got. Went through highs and lows, through ebb and flow. One single key to my memories. Life is moving so fast. It's done before we can ask. Like a time machine in a movie scene. We move from stage to stage until the oldest age. World is the scenery, glad that I can choose what I’ll be. What I wanna be. What my plot is about, what I’ll say out loud —I will say out loud, I will say out loud. In my diary. Next to the sea. In front of home. After my shows. Fearful replied to the questions of life. I didn’t just write, I’ve recorded my lines. In my diary. To find clarity. To break free from love. From the hate that I got. Went through highs and lows, through ebb and flow. One single key to my memories.
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Underground
Never felt like a believer. Prefer to see things cause it’s realer. Sometimes, it’s just our mind who lets us shine in the dark. Everything seems so easy, but the problems are kept deep in. Kind of a soul save, but not a safe space. It’s all about the underground and all we want is diving out. Never get caught by the corners of the rock. Stones that we throw into ourselves — most before twelve and now it is burden mental health. Always put myself in troubles. There is no chance to build a bubble which keeps me safe, pretend to create something like a home. Home like the soulmates, home like these ones with the same genes. Even they can’t help dealing with myself. It’s all about the underground and all we want is diving out. Never get caught by the corners of the rock. Stones that we throw into ourselves — most before twelve and now it is burden mental health. Overthinking all the things and how they went. Even if they talk about an happy end. My own mind just struggles with the past events. Tried to forget but memories stay down there. „Get out“ — the delay I hear but there’s no other person who could told so clear. All I got to do is leave away from here. But pressure push me down — I can’t leave the underground. The Underground. Never thought I can believe in but it’s way better than dream about the dark. Listen to your heart — it leads you out of the underground.
Mother Earth
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I used to make love songs with the most beautiful chords. Thought about the cupid —feelings are changing fast. Everything s going well for me, I’m loved and alive. But how can I survive the deep that this event has brought? Mother earth are you all right? Why isn't he still alive? Mother earth are you all right? Mother earth don't let him die. Just give me a short reply. How can I keep him alive? Life is going up and down like a roller coaster ride. Feels like falling on the ground in this horrible time. Going through valley of tears to reach the next peak. Falling lower than anytime to fly up again, to fly up again. Mother earth are you all right? Why isn't he still alive? Mother earth are you all right? Mother earth don't let him die. Just give me a short reply. How can I keep him alive? Mother Earth, we don’t deserve, we don’t deserve. I wish that I can meet you, see you growing up. Sing with you to all my love songs instead singing alone. The sky is full of stars right now. One of them is shining bright. I Kind of feel you watching — watching through the lights.
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Tonight
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How do you know, where is the limit of happiness? Am I close to it, did I reach all levels over it? Is there a way to revolutionize relation(ships)? Let’s say we're friends, but please — explain the butterflies. It feels like heaven to me, like there is nothing I can’t reach. Is it silly to think we could be? Tonight — you changed my mind when you showed me a million lights and you told me. Before tonight, you couldn’t see the signs but I knew it was your smile that keeps me alive. Wednesday evening, you asked me about future plans. Sorry I don’t remember, you might just have changed them. I know even if, I could never tell you that. Girl, I’m way too scared but (right) now I must confess. It feels like heaven to me, like there is nothing I can’t reach. No it’s not silly to think we could be. Tonight — you changed my mind when you showed me a million lights and you told me. Before tonight, you couldn’t see the signs but I knew it was your smile that keeps me alive. Alive, Alive. Tonight — you changed my mind when you told me, that this feels right. Before tonight, you couldn’t see the signs but I knew it was your smile that keeps me alive. Alive, Alive.
